The last time I wrote a blog post it was December 2019. That seems like a lifetime ago and it was a totally different world than the one I am experiencing now. When I wrote that post in December, I was considering my dreams and intentions for 2020, looking forward into the future. Now my "future" is happening today, and like you, I'm navigating these times as best I can.
So as I sit here at the keyboard, wondering what the point of this blog post is, I realize it is to send out some love or reassurance. To encourage you to take care of yourself in these times of change, and to let you know that everything you are feeling is being felt by everyone.
Four months into 2020 and our world has been turned upside down. Everything is different now, our ways of living and working, our certainty about how to do life, our beliefs about our security and safety, loss of our freedoms, fears about our health and an increased level of fear in general.
Working & Time
Each of us is experiencing this turmoil individually and yet also collectively. (And as I write this I acknowledge that every country, province and state is having their own experience with the effects of this pandemic.)
A popular post on social media right now reminds us that we are in the same storm, but different boats. Some of us are working in what has been deemed essential service, some are working from home, some are working from home and homeschooling their children.
Still others are doing what they can to make some money, or to keep the doors of their business open, so they can keep food on the table and the bills paid.
Those who are economically fortunate are using this time to rest, learn, create, or exercise. And most of us are learning how to be with ourselves, figuring out how to use that extra time we were longing for before the pandemic.
Physical & Emotional
Change is never easy, and this type of change and uncertainty that we are experiencing now has never happened in our life times. I have experienced feelings of fear, emotional shock, a deep feeling of loss, sadness, anger and confusion. I have also felt gratitude, calm, and a trust in Life that yes, although this is tough, we can and will get through it.
Some days I feel better than other days. When I have the energy and feel drawn to 'do' something I follow it. And sometimes it's all I can do to quietly sit or read or nap, I honor that. (I recognize that I am able to do this because I am self employed, and right now, my client load is very light. My clients are prioritizing their spending, and I have not rushed to offer services either because I knew that I needed time to adjust and care for myself )
So, if you feel drained, or like you are procrastinating or being lazy, don't beat yourself up. Rest when you can. Give yourself permission to process and feel, let yourself off the hook. This won't be forever, it's just for now. And it might help you to know that when we are doing "nothing" our wonderfully intelligent body system is doing lots to take care of us.
I also feel like this time could be an invitation for opening and expanding. It might be a chance for us to assess our lives; what we like and appreciate, what works, and what isn't working. It might be a time to consider family, values and priorities, a time for re-ordering.
Where vocation and work is concerned, we might use this time to re-envision our work or our businesses. A time for gentle inquiry about our gifts and what we are here to offer. We might just allow ourselves to dream a little without the pressure to rush headlong in to making something happen until we find the new middle ground.
Gratitude & Life
Perhaps it's time to become aware of what we have taken for granted, and to practice gratitude for every gift and privilege of our lives. To show ourselves and others more love. To appreciate our earth home and to commit to taking better care of her. A time to practice presence and honor life more fully.
I hope these few words have given you a sense of comfort, hope and an opportunity to reflect on what you are feeling, thinking and hoping for the future.
We are all one, connected by the great web of life and the love that sustains us all.
May we be well.
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